...one of the greatest privileges of a human life is to become midwife to the birth of the soul in another. When your soul awakens, you begin to truly inherit your life. You leave the Kingdom of fake surfaces, repetitive talk and weary roles and slip deeper into the true adventure of who you are and who you are called to become. The greatest friend of the soul is the unknown...
John O'Donohue

Monday, May 31, 2010

Good omens

One morning last week, Jimmy and I were lingering over breakfast, watching the water dance in patterned waves as large fish moved just under the surface, chasing hundreds of smaller fish, driving them toward the surface where they exploded from the water in a spectacular rippling motion, hundreds of tiny fish moving as one large body. When they first arrived last month with their aquatic acrobatic act, they captured everyone’s attention. Everyone flocked to the beach to watch them. The Fijians remarked that they were happy to see them, that they had been gone a long time. They cautioned everyone not to spearfish them, because it would certainly make them go away.

As the weeks have ticked on, they have become as much of a part of the island as the sea itself – always there, always moving in or out with the tides. The fish are silver, about 2 inches in length, and have surrounded the island by the millions. Looking down on the sea from a high vantage point, a thick ribbon of these silver fish is visible around the entire island. If you watch long enough, you will see barracudas, sharks, and trevali moving amongst them, feeding like kings.

As we watched this awesome display as we have so many other mornings this last month, Leavi came and sat down at the table across from us. From the excited look in his eye, we could tell he had something to say. In his kind and gentle way of speaking, he began, “Lately, I have seen many things for the first time on Vorovoro.” He gestured with his hand toward the sea, where the fish were still dancing. “This is the first time for these fish to come like this to Vorovoro. Before, they only come a few days, or not at all. These fish, Daniva, they are a very good thing, a very good sign. They mean good things for Vorovoro. They bring us what we need, they bring the big fish. This morning, Jone and I picked up 3 dead Daniva from the sand, put them on a hook and pulled in three big fish.” He shows us on his forearm the length of the fish, at least 2 feet long.

“In our culture, these fish coming mean very good things. These fish coming back, they come back because good people are here, people who care for the land and care for the people. Someone to look after the island who is good in his heart. Does not speak harsh and does good work. Cares for the people, the Mali people. This makes us very happy. Good things happening with Vorovoro.”

Jimmy and I listened to Leavi’s voice, and his kind, wise words. A truly beautiful compliment if there ever was one. We tried to accept it graciously, “Vinaka vakalevu, Leavi”, and then quietly tucked it away in our hearts.

Whether the fish coming back has anything to do with us being here is not for us to determine. But, we do not doubt the wisdom and the intuition of our Fijian friends and teachers. They understand things in ways that we do not, cannot, because we are not Fijian. Fijian culture and ways are intricately subtle. I’ve heard it said that you could live in Fiji for 10 years, and then you just might begin to really understand. I believe there is truth in that statement!

While living here, we’ve witnessed the Fijian people’s remarkable connection with one another, with the sea, and with the land in amazing ways, and it humbles us. It teaches us yet another way of interacting with our lives and the land, and so we open our hearts and our minds and try to learn the Fijian way – by paying attention and not asking too many questions, because when you are busy asking questions, you often miss out on the answers you were after all along.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Hell week coming to an end!

So some of you have been following the latest Cahill Fiji adventure by Facebook. If so, most of this is old news, but I know some folks don't follow FB so here goes...

A week ago Friday, Ollie's ear was paining. Took him to Dr - there was an insect (dead) in there. Was told to take him to hospital on Monday for removal.

Monday - went to hospital, waited 4 hours to see doctor because it was the day before school started again after break, and everyone was having their child seen. They tried to remove it with a saline flush. Ollie screamed a scream no mother should ever have to hear, and I knew they had damaged his ear. Admitted for IV antibiotics and they wanted to do exploration under anesthesia the next day. Needless to say, were were NOT keen on anyone but a specialist to go poking around in there. No specialist in Labasa. Would have to travel to Suva. Spent night in dirty, crowded, hot, and mosquito filled children's ward. Very sad night filled surrounded by wails of sick and hurting children. I'm so grateful for my healthy children.

Surgeon that ordered the flush was new, and assumed the flush would be given my skilled doctor, not nurse. Very, very remorseful and helped us with our transfer to Suva. Also heard a heart murmer she wanted us to have checked out.

Tues-Friday - Flew to Suva and then spent the week back and forth from hospital having ear and heart checked out. ENT specialist was able to remove a bit more of the insect and said the damaged canal is healing, although Oliver is still in a lot of pain. After loads of test, turns out his heart murmer is just an innocent murmer - just a funny sounding heart.

During this week, I developed a terrible flu that morphed into a cold. Kept myself nicely medicated and was able to function pretty well, but by the end of the week was just wiped out. Still feeling very ill as I write this, but will be as good as new with some good rest.

Finally cleared to go home on Friday. Decided on the cheaper way - overnight by boat. Waited 4 hours to board boat, then 2 more for the boat to finally leave harbor. Fiji time! Paid extra for a bed for us to share - couldn't wait to sleep. Really feeling ill by this time, and Oliver's ear was hurting terribly. All the beds were crawling with roaches. Thought I would cry! I just wanted to sleep. Someone sprayed out our bunk area and we just hoped for the best. Ollie slept with a shirt over his head lest another bug was tempted by the coziness of his ear canal, and I tried very hard to sleep with my mouth closed, despite the very stuffy nose.

Had to wait few more hours to get off boat because some work being done in the harbor - several hours behind by that time. Now we are awaiting a bus that will take us the last 3 hours to Labasa. Then it is 1/2 hours taxi and a 1/2 hour boat, then HOME! Couldn't be happier about that.

Through all of this, Oliver has been amazing. Hours of waiting everyday with nothing to do, with a sick and not-fun Mommy, and he was patient. No whining, no complaining. So very grateful for his easy going nature!

We managed to make the most of this time together - never before has it been just the two of us for such an extended amount of time. Lots of cards games, stories, books, and snuggles. Despite the troubles and illing, we managed to have a pretty good time.

But we are both missing J, B and O like crazy. Hugs all around, soon soon soon!

Hopefully the next update will be a better one! Love to all!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Quick Check-in!!!

We've been on the road lately and haven't been able to be online, so sorry for the lack of updates and email. And we have't had a Blackberry on the island for several weeks now, which has made keeping in touch by email a lot harder. Hoping this will change in the next few days, and then we will be able to email from the island once again.

We had to travel to Tonga to renew our visa, and couldn't have been happier to step off the plane back into friendly Fiji. Anyone who thinks that South Pacific countries are all the same couldn't be more wrong. Tonga is just a rather unfriendly country, from all we saw - at least to visitors. No smiles, no greetings, no help with directions, ripped off at every opportunity. We were even lied to by bus drivers who did want us on his bus. And the island is very Western influenced, complete with thug culture - it felt a lot like LA. Not at all what we expected from this tiny country. Isa au lomani o Viti dina! (On I really love Fiji!) There's no place like home!

We are on Viti Levu now (the large island) taking the long way home, meeting with friends of the Tribe and business partners along the way. Doing a little PR work along the way. We are taking the bus up the coast, and will eventually end up in Suva, where we will make the long journey by bus and boat back to Vanua Levu, then finally Vorovoro. Hoping to be home in 3-4 days.

Will try to post again soon! Even though it might take a little while for us to respond, keep the emails coming - hearing word from home means so much to us. Much love to you!

Jenny